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I’m going to try this in Word and then copy/paste. I’m still pissed that the entry from before is invisible. (Or most of it anyway.)


Okay, so the details…

I got called back for the assistant front office manager position at a casino. (Not the one I worked at before and the one John still works at.) The manager is the one who called and she did seem nice.

I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, we really need me to go back to work because of money issues. (The sale of the condo was the reason we could afford for me to stay home a few years. The condo, as we know, has not sold.) On the other hand, at this point it has to be worth it for me to go back to work. Meaning child care costs and gas to and from work. Obviously we can’t afford for me to go to work if it doesn’t cover these expenses plus bring in a bit extra.

I’m excited that I was ‘worthy’ enough for an interview. That makes me feel good. I think I’m excited at the prospect of going back into the world. I think I miss working.
But it did bring on tears at the thought of leaving my babies. It’s really hard to think about.

In a perfect world I would find a part-time job that paid through the nose and I’d only be away from the kids a little. I don’t think or really expect that to happen.


There are a lot of things to consider though- the hours, the flexibility (especially when kids get sick), days off, and the money.

I’m cautiously excited right now with a dab/touch of resentment that I’m in this place (having to look and think of work) to begin with.


That being said, I’m beginning to realize that it may be a very good thing indeed that kids are introduced to some form of child care now. (Not sure if we’d do a nanny or a child care center right now- depends on money and schedules.) Rea freaks out with other people. She’s not even 6 months old and has stranger/separation anxiety. No one else can feed them right now. I don’t think this is a great path for us to be heading down.

And I also realize that by working it would give me a break and in turn make me a better mommy.


I don’t know. I really have very (very) mixed feelings about it all. At this point I’ll just try not to over think everything. Go to the interview and get the information and then John and I can talk everything over and go from there.




Gina