Squeeze with Love

Today was such a beautiful day!

Me and the babes went out to the grocery store. I decided that I didn't feel like pushing one buggy while pulling another (usually the babies are in one buggy in their carriers and the groceries in the other) so I strapped on my carrier and toted Jay. I think he really liked it.

And let me tell ya...took me almost 2 hours! I was stopped soooooo many times today. There were a lot of older people out and that was part of it. (Older people just love to stop and look at any babies, much less a two for one.) But I don't think I'll have to shop next week, except for maybe milk or little things like that.


Rea is back to being completely swaddled. I got tired of going up the stairs 5 thousand times to reinsert her paci. I know. I'll have to one day. And what kills me is that she'll suck her fingers when she's awake now. Used to she had to have her paci all the time. Now she'll happily slurp on fingers while playing. (It's cute to see her 'talk' around her fingers.) Why can't she do that to sleep?! (Which I know would be harder to break. I'm just being lazy. Hush.)


I laughed so hard today when I went to get them after their first nap. Jay had pulled free of his swaddle (easier now with his one arm starting out of it) and flipped on his belly, scooted to the middle of the crib, and was a grinning drooling baby when I went up there. He was so funny with his head up and legs up. It looked like he was trying to fly. Or swim. He's going to be a mess in a few months. I need to start exercising so I'll be able to keep up!

And then there's my sweet little Rea. She's so happy to sit and watch the world go by. She just lights up now when I go get them. It's the best thing in the world. She laughs and smiles and it's just too damn cute. She scrunches her whole face when she laughs or smiles really big. It kills me. She smiles with her entire face. I love it.

I'm starting to enjoy them more now that they are moving past the baby blob phase. I don't want to wish their baby-ness away, but I can't wait to hear them. To see who they'll be. They are so different and so much the same.


Watching them eat is so much fun. They are both getting better day by day. Rea would do much better if she didn't try to talk with food in her mouth. Or if she didn't laugh with food in her mouth. I'm glad we're getting these things on video.
Jay is like a little bird. By the time it's his turn again (I do a bite for one then the other and we go back and forth like that) his little mouth is open and he's waving his arms all around.
They crack me up sometimes.

Rea's laugh is so contagious. Seriously. I hear her and can't help but laugh too. Which never fails to crack her up more. And there we sit, mom and daughter just laughing at each other.


Sometimes I'm just so overwhelmed with the love I feel for them. I just want to squeeze them tight and never let go. And sometimes I just can't stop kissing them. I knew I would love them. I loved them before they were born. Then I saw them. I can't imagine how I could ever love them more, but then I wake up the next day and I do.


I am so blessed to have them as my children. Them. They were meant for me and me for them. I'm honored to be their mother.



This turned out much different from what I started with. That's okay.


Gina